I’m not new to this. I know what it feels like to get a negative pregnancy test, or the BFN as most ladies start calling it after a while. Still, it gets to me. Each month I’m hopeful, convinced even, that this will be the month the elusive BFP will appear. There are two whole weeks building up to this one moment, where at the crack of dawn I find myself in the bathroom praying for that extra line, regardless of whether it’s a + or a ||.
That one missing line used to make me feel like my world came crashing down on me. It would take days, if not weeks to recover. Creating a little miracle can be a draining affair, draining on your relationship, draining on your emotional health, draining on your life. As months passed, I was becoming more and more unhappy and ready to give up. There was only one solution; to find ways to stay positive, and get through the emotional uproar within myself.
I talked to a few close friends who had wonderful babies over the last year (I may have been jealous) and knew I have been trying to conceive. I asked them how they got through the horrendous two-week wait. They supringly had similar advice; “just stop obsessing over the pregnancy symptoms”.
Stop obsessing? Yeah, that’s not going to work. Though there is something to be said about those pregnancy symptoms. When I check my logs, it turns out that I have pregnancy symptoms each and every month. How can this be? This send me on a quest to get some answers. Turns out, this little thing called progesterone is the main culprit. It produces many symptoms associated with pregnancy even before implantation and even if pregnancy wouldn’t occur at all. Symptoms include: sore breasts, cramps, backache, pelvic pain, increased urination, mood swings, gas, bloating, sensitivity to smell, increased mucus, food cravings and even aversions and the list goes on. Does this sound familiar? No wonder I think I’m pregnant each month. No wonder, I obsess like a lunatoon. More reasons to find ways to de-obsess.
I love giving presents so much that I even enjoy thinking about giving presents. Lately, I catch myself day-dreaming about little gifts for my hubster, should we be so lucky to conceive again.
On my journey to my little big miracle, thinking positively about my future, helps me stay in a happy-go-lucky-mode. I thought I’d share the ten little presents that have crossed my mind or I have seen on the internet with you.
A grand adventure is about to begin – Winnie the Pooh
It was 4.30 AM when I just couldn’t keep it in anymore. I knew I was going to take a pregnancy test that morning, so I had no choice but to take it right there and then. Pretty much immediately, that gorgeous extra line appeared and I remember shaking my husband and exclaiming in utter disbelief “It’s positive”. I must not have sounded very convincing as my sleepy husband thought I was playing. He didn’t appreciate such funny games that early in the morning. Let’s just say, that’s how I remember my pregnancy revelation, with one hell of a grumpy husband.
Next time around, I want to make it a fun experience which we’ll recall with a smile. There may be pictures, there may be a video but there will be no grumpy husband.
These are some of the most creative ways to let your lovah know you are expecting a little miracle: