Sometimes I wonder what women did before the internet. Were they calling their GP every three seconds? Or were they calmer, more in touch with nature? We have the advantage of checking every little symptom or every little test result on the internet. I like to call it, Dr. Google.
I used to have a close relationship with Dr. Google. Oh, how things have changed. Dr. Google and I are no longer on speaking terms. It gives me the most outrageous diagnoses and often leaves me more worried than I ever was before. I was pretty good at ignoring Dr. Google until I received my Beta hCG test results.
I discovered one can do a private blood test, right here in London, just 50 min away for $77. It includes two tests and they simply send the results to your email. Just one tiny sign that all is evolving as it should, would make me so less anxious, or so I thought. I decided that my piece of mind was worth the money. So, Monday evening I was on my way and I anxiously awaited my results, which were to come in on Tuesday morning.
I was so nervous when I received the result, I couldn’t even open the file and had to ask my husbster to read it for me. He took such a long time and had such a strange look on his face. I tried to determine whether this was good or bad and really had the urge to yell “So what is it?!”
My result, at 4 weeks 1 day was 1562. When I saw the normal range I realized this is way above normal. I was so afraid it would come back much too low , but instead I found myself worrying why it was so high. How could I find out what this meant?
I only saw one quick solution. I ran to Dr. Google. Not even a couple seconds later Dr. Google started spitting out words like molar pregnancy and I found myself get clammy cold hands and decided I needed to shut down the computer. Once again, Dr. Google and I are no longer friends.
I will go in for my second blood test this evening and expect the results again tomorrow. I’m just praying that my second test will yield normal results compared to my first test result.
Just trying to stay hopeful…